Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Adventures of a single girl in this lame city...

Today I planned meeting a very special friend of mine; really a past lover whom treated me right and whom I care very deeply for and value his opinion.

We meet for drinks at the Peacock Room, one of my favorite places. Mr Y (this is lover #2 code) Is an attorney who runs his own firm; very busy, very motivated with a heart of gold. We split give or take 3 years ago and have remained very great friends (no benefits) I can tell Mr Y anything and he would never judge me... The best part is that if I ever did any wrong, he has no problem calling me out on it and always very tactful may I add.

I have been single now for the better part of a year and have been working on my look, style and attitude as a whole. I have a great job, live in an excellent neighborhood and have a hold on my finances ( I feel very blessed) and am very responsible.

I'm available! I said. Who are you eye'ng? he asked. No one yet. I feel I have been single long enough and I am ready to share my bed... I'm not looking for a husband, or a father; I am taking applications for a "partner" I want to have a little more fun with a man as oppose to me always doing things on my own...

Why are you always doing things on your own? he asked. Because my "friends" have other interest and I just decided to go on my own for adventure...

What kind of adventures? ha asked. All sorts; I want to go camping, I want to run, bike, snorkel and dive more often. stay away in random places for maybe a night at a beach; drive to the beach at night; have drinks at a lounge, dance, kiss till its morning and stay in bed all day eating sorbet and watching movies. I want him to like my dog and be an outdoors man. Not be lazy and not take things so personal, I want to laugh at his jokes and be silly and sexy at the same time. I want to flirt and have him wink at me from across the room. I want to have sex in random places at any time of the day or night.

I'm looking for a friend I can discuss politics, religion, economy and still be able to smile about it. I want pillow fights and make up sex. sleepovers and party nights; group dates and romantic dinners. Work discussions and play time.

I want life to happen with someone I can trust, have fun with and be ourselves!

How do you plan to manage that? he asked.

I was about to ask you????

For those of you that do not know me; Mr Y and I dated for 2 years and had a great relationship. we laugh, we cried. we never argued and the sex was pretty good and very often.... But we were not "inlove" love. So we decided we should just stay good friends and give each other the chance to find that burning, painful, blissful love that keeps you awake and alive; Euphoria if I may.

I believe that each human being has the capability of experiencing these feeling. i mean really experiencing this between two people. This hunger and sexual desire combined with admiration and respect and above all compassion. I hate to sound "moochy" because I am not a needy, feely, touchy kind of girl. But I have experience infatuation and it has been mutual. But like everyone else; it has faded because it was not true love!

I want to meet that man that makes me want to be an even better person, I man that will drive me as much as I can possibly drive him; i want this to be mutual; and I believe in the bottom of my heart that this does exists.

I have no idea where to even start looking. And then I realized all I needed was positive affirmation..... I needed Mr Y to tell me I could do it. Did not matter how I would get there, I just needed to know that it could be done.

Be true to yourself, make yourself happy and have strong convictions. Be honest and let people in, tear down any walls and any negative thoughts, accept people for what they are and never expect any more than they can give, believe in them as they believe in you. Always smile, be selective and above all; never deny yourself what you deserve.....